Just Waiting...

That's what I'm doing. Going forward with the daily grind housework, job, healing and waiting.
We wait to see what the results are from all of the blood work and see what are the next steps until the FET (frozen embryo transfer).

Yesterday I went to the OB/GYN for my post op visit. Nothing exciting. She's not surprised I'm still spotting. She said I bled heavily because I was farther along and there were two of them. She apparently had to work pretty hard to remove all the stuff. Cervix is still open slightly. She took a urine pregnancy test to ensure it's negative or close to it. I didn't have to wait around to hear the result. If I get a call from the office they'll ask me to take a HPT (home pg test) in a few weeks to confirm a negative result. God, I hope I don't have to do that. It's one of the ways they ensure there's nothing left over inside along with no bleeding, fever, chills, etc. Bah. I hate this.

I walked out and cried a little. I should have been 16 weeks along, not going in to check on my D&C. I briefly contemplated getting a new doctor. Not for any other reason than the office reminds me of losses. Then I felt guilty for thinking that and thought to myself that Dr. D deserves to see me succeed. How weird that I want to make her happy too and felt guilty that she has to keep telling me how sorry she is for us. For my own sanity, I'm going talk to the RE and see if he'll will suggest that I go to a Maternal Fetal Medicine specialist just to consult at the beginning. There's no real reason to do this except for my own sanity. I don't even know if it's reasonable but.... That's how I feel today, we'll see what tomorrow brings.