Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Tonight at 7pm there will be a 'Wave of Light' as families light candles for their babies and place them outside for an hour.
The hospital sent us home with information on grief and loss. This website has helpful hints for parents, grandparents and friends. http://www.nationalshare.org/parents.html
My friend Jenny in Seattle tied two ribbons on a memory wreath in the chapel at the Children's Hospital yesterday while she was there with her son.
We lit candles for the babies during the Greek festival at the Greek Cathedral. Thinking back...it was about the time they died. I remembered that last night while wracking my brain trying to find a "reason" for what has happened....something I did or ate maybe.
I had a dream about 2 weeks ago that I was bleeding and lost the babies. I told the Mister about it right away, I was so disturbed. It took every rational part of me to not call the doctor and make up an excuse to go in. I guess I should have so it wouldn't have gone on this long.
I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do. I guess for now, I do nothing and wade through it.
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*here from Suzy's Twitter page* I'm so sorry for your loss. Please know that someone from Oregon is sending you lots of love and prayers. I'm holding you and your family close to my heart. I'm truly sorry.
*HUGS*
I'm sorry is so simple and insufficient. Praying you find strength to hold on. You are not alone - please remember to take care of yourself. (((Hugs)))
Ann - I'm sending big hugs. We lit 2 candles outside last night.
One thing I learned the hard way about measuring fetuses that don't make it is that they shrink after their hearts stop beating. So it's difficult to pinpoint the time when that happens. Having said that, I do think your dream was important. Mothers' instincts are usually correct. But even if you'd gone in, it's doubtful that medical science could have done anything.
And please try to put your mind at ease about anything that you may have done. Babies at that age are so well protected by your body and their little aquatic worlds that there is no way that anything you did or ate could have harmed them. Your body was nurturing them and providing them with the best environment possible. This is hwat your body is meant to do and does an excellent job of doing it.
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